This seems like a pretty obvious statement to anyone that knows me, but it's something I'm becoming increasingly aware of being an issue. I have all the classic symptoms of an addict. I make goals that I'm going to eat better, more natural foods, only to fall on my face within a matter of days and gorge out on half a box of CheezIts. Inevitably this leads to a day of binging on crap. That in turns leads to feelings of guilt. Which leads to swearing I'm going to keep to a healthy diet, starting the whole cycle over again.
This does nothing good for my waistline, my skin, my heart or my mental health. I'm 80% sure my general exhaustion, depression, plateau weight of thisclose to being obese and continuing acne problems in my 30s is a direct result of this. It's a precarious balance that makes me impatient with my family, lowers my sex drive and makes it so I generally don't want to remove my ass off of the couch.
At the end of the day, I'm not happy. I'm difficult to deal with. I know all these things. You'd think that'd be my motivation to beat the whole cycle, but I sometimes think that in my head I've doomed myself to failure before I've begun. I need to do something about my mentality though, because this is decidedly not working in the slightest.
